Backseat in My Own Life

[Verse 1]

Coffee in a chipped blue cup

Your name still on my mail

Same old town

Same sun comes up

But the colors all feel pale

I drive past our old driveway slow

Like I might turn in again

Radio talking ’bout tomorrow

I’m still stuck in way-back-when

[Chorus]

I’m in the backseat in my own life

Watching these days roll by

Face in the window

Tracing rain lines

Too scared to tell the driver I

Don’t wanna ride this road the same

Lonely’s just a different kind of chain

I feel a change

I feel a change

But it’s aching

Clear as pain

[Verse 2]

Friends all say

“You’re doing fine”

They don’t hear the midnight floor

Every board knows every sigh

Every creak knows every door

Your jacket on the hallway hook

I walk past and hold my breath

Like if I move too fast

This hurt

Might finally confess

[Chorus]

I’m in the backseat in my own life

Watching these days roll by

Face in the window

Tracing rain lines

Too scared to tell the driver I

Don’t wanna ride this road the same

Lonely’s just a different kind of chain

I feel a change

I feel a change

But it’s aching

Clear as pain

[Bridge]

Maybe I’ll pack one bag

Leave before the morning light

Choose a little fear

Over getting used to quiet nights

[Chorus]

I’m in the backseat in my own life

But my hand’s reaching for the wheel

If I miss a turn or two

That’s fine

At least the turning’s real

I won’t ride this road the same

Lonely’s just a word I’ll change

I feel a change

I feel a change

And it’s clear

I’m driving through the strange