Better Than Before

I was all late staring at the ceiling

Trying not to feel it

And it's still ringing in my head

But I'm done with the sequel

I used to chase what broke me

Now I'm chasing peace

Had to let the pain talk back

So I could finally leave

Safe city, different energy

I move a little cleaner, like smoke

Can I run out, but my mind is even meaner

Told myself I'd stop looking back, it would be worse

If love was a lesson, then I learned it, no blur

I'm doing better than before

I don't need the old me

Had to lose a little love

Just to see what growth means

I got heavy now inside of when I'm walking through the rain

Still remember you, but I don't wanna sing

I'm doing better than before

Who found my way out?

Turn the hurt into a reason

Turn the silence into sound

You can keep the memories, I'm not living in the past

I'm building something real now, something that can last

I was numb for a minute, had my pride in the way

Acting like I was fine when I was fine every day

Friends said, bro, you changed, yeah, I hope they can tell

That I'm not who I was when I was under your spell

Now I wake up early, get to work and keep it movin'

No more beggin' for a love that was already goin'

I got ghosts on my mind and a beast I can't protect

What you walked away from, I'm the one who can collect

I'm doin' better than before

I don't need to ball now

Had to lose a little love

Just to see what growth means

I got heavy now it′s harder when I'm walking through the rain

Still remember you but I don′t move the same

I'm doing better than before

Yeah I found my way out

Turning hurt into a reason

Turning silence into sound

You can keep the memories

I'm not living in the past

I′m building something real now

Something that can last

Maybe I had a break to know what strength looked like

Maybe every dark night was just for prayerful light

And if you ever wondered

If I made it through the scars

Yeah, I'm here, I'm healing

I'm going in farther than we are

I'm doing better than before

I don't need the boomin'

Had to lose a little love

Just to see what growth means

Heart got heavy, now it's lighter when I walk into the rain

Still remember you, but I don't know the song

I'm doing better than before

Yeah, I found my way out

Turn the hurt into a reason

Turn the silence into sound

You can keep the memories, I'm not leaving in the past

I'm building something real now, something I can last