Falling Into the Light

I kept your shadow by my bedside

Like it could teach my heart to stay

Every quiet room you left behind

Still says your name in minor ways

I tried to speak

But the words would break

Like glass in my throat

Like a vow I couldn't make

And I fall, I fall

Record the part of me you held

I call, I call

But your silence echoes harder than hell

Now the strings rise and my chest gives way

To the truths I buried every day

If love was meant to heal, why does it hurt this much?

I'm breaking open just to feel your touch

I wore you goodbye like a winter coat

Too heavy to carry, too cold to burn

I watched the sky turn after you spoke

And still I stayed like I might return

But the mirror knows what I won't say

That I lost myself in the aftertaste

And I fall, I fall

Right through the part of me you held

Like hope, I call

But your silence echoes harder than help

Now the springs rise and my chest gives way

To the truth I buried every day

If love was meant to heal

Why does it hurt this much?

I'm breaking open just to feel your touch

Let the beat hit like a spinal wave

Let it shake the grief I could not save

If I have to learn to live in flame

I'll burn your memory out of my name

And I fall, I fall

Let it muzzle through the wreckage now

I call, I call

And ask on you before the part of me I found

Now the strings soar and the night turns cold

I'll let go of the pain I held you long

If love was meant to break, I'll make it dust

And taking back my heart from what it cost