Midnight Texts, Empty Room

I'm scrolling through the old messages again

In this quiet apartment in my shadow

The city hums outside, but it don't reach me in

Every little line reads like a place I used to go

You used to send light home in the middle of the night

Now your name just sits there glowing on my screen

I trace the words I should've bequeathed

But the past still knows exactly where I've been

I say I'm good when nobody asks

I fold the hurt into a half-lit glass

You try to act like this is nothing much

But I still feel your ghost in every touch

I'm pretending to be fine, but I'm not tonight

Stop missing what once felt like

Got your memory playing in the open light

While I'm sitting here alone

Pretending to be fine when my heart won't lie

It keeps reaching for a falling flame

And every time I tell myself goodbye

I end up calling out your name

The couch still hold the shape of when you stay

That old caffeine cup, it's dusting out the taste

I read those texts like prayers I can't erase

Hoping one more word could change the place I'm in

The silence in this room is loud enough

To show me all the things we couldn't save

I miss the way you make my midnight soft

Now the whole apartment feels like a wave

Without closing my eyes, I can almost hear you laugh

Like the walls remember what we had

I keep moving through the wreckage of the past

Trying not to break, trying not to snap

I'm pretending to be fine, but I'm not tonight

Still missing what once felt like home

Got your memory playing in the rainbow light

While I'm sitting here alone

I'm pretending to be fine but my heart won't lie

It keeps reaching for a falling flame

And every time I tell myself goodbye

I end up calling out your name

Scrolling through the old messages again

In this quiet apartment, me and my shadow