No More Your Favorite

I′ve been bending in the corners just to fit your frame

Cutting pieces off my spirit so you wouldn't change

Smiling through the silence, swallowing my pride

But every time I folded, I disappeared inside

You got used to me apologizing for my lies

'Bout your love was something I should pay for every night

But I can hear my heartbeat asking me to choose

And I'm done mistaking losing me for losing you

I can't keep shrinking myself to stay in love

Can't keep calling in forever when it's not enough

If I have to disappear, then that's not love

I'd rather walk away, hold and stay and come undone

No more saying sorry just to keep the peace

No more handing you the best of me for free

I won't trade my self-respect for another apology

I can't keep shaking myself to stay in love

I remember all the nights I made you hurt my own

Held away to both our shadows while I stood alone

You said I was hard to hold, too much to understand

But I was only reaching for the truth in your hands

Now I see the shape of me beneath the pain

Of making, breaking silence and still not feel ashamed

If love don't leave room for my name on my knees

Then I'm not being loved, I'm just learning how to stay

I can't keep tricking myself to stay in love

Can't keep calling in forever when it's not enough

If I had to disappear, then that's not love

I'd rather walk away whole than staying calm undone

No more saying sorry just to keep the peace

No more handing you the best of me free

I won't trade my self-respect for another apology

I can't keep shrinking myself to stay loved

I forget what I can, but I won't erase my name

I won't stand in the fire and call that love in flames

If you need a small link, and you need someone else

I'm done mistaking your comfort for myself

That can't keep stringing myself to stay love

Can't keep calling in for love when it's not enough

If I have to disappear, then that's not love

I'd rather walk away, holding, staying calm, undone

No more saying sorry just to keep the peace

No more handing you the best of me for free

I won't pay no self-respect for another apology

Cock it deep, shrinking myself to stable

I'm learning how to spin when my heart can't breathe

Option never asked me to be less than me