Numb Now

You hurt me, then you smile

Like nothing ever bled

I keep my face still

But I’m breaking in my head

Old memories on repeat

Like shoes on cracked tile

I hold it in my chest

And swallow every lie

You don’t see the bruise

You don’t read my eyes

I keep saying “I’m fine”

With a thousand little cries

I loved you in the dark

I loved you all the time

And that’s the part that kills me

You’ll never call it mine

I’m numb now

I’m numb now (numb now)

Don’t care now

Don’t care now (don’t care)

You keep me here

Then leave me there

I’m numb now

I’m numb now

You act like we’re okay

Like you never cut deep

You laugh and change the subject

While I lose sleep

I knew the shape of your hand

Before it let go

And still I stayed too long

Hoping you’d know

You don’t see the bruise

You don’t read my eyes

I keep saying “I’m fine”

With a thousand little cries

I loved you in the dark

I loved you all the time

And that’s the part that kills me

You’ll never call it mine

I’m numb now

I’m numb now (numb now)

Don’t care now

Don’t care now (don’t care)

You keep me here

Then leave me there

I’m numb now

I’m numb now

If I’m honest, I still ache

For the version you let me keep

But I can’t keep bleeding

Just to prove you need me

So I close the door slow

Let the silence have its say

If you never loved me back

Then I’m learning how to walk away

I’m numb now

I’m numb now (numb now)

Don’t care now

Don’t care now (don’t care)

You keep me here

Then leave me there

I’m numb now

I’m numb now