Quiet In The Back Of My Mind

[Intro]

Talking to myself again

Room so loud

I still feel alone inside

(yeah)

[Verse 1]

Scroll in my palm

Thumb stuck on my flaws

Every little comment

Feels carved into my jaw

Mama say she proud

I don’t feel that proud

Got a closet full of “almost”

Stacked up like a crowd

Laugh in the group chat

Cry when it’s night

I can’t tell the mirror

If I’m wrong or I’m right

[Chorus]

I keep it quiet in the back of my mind

Where I replay every word, every time

Smile on my face

Heart on decline

Tell me, am I wasting my life

Or just late to my prime?

I keep it quiet in the back of my mind

All of my fears standing there in a line

If they knew the things

I try to hide

Would they still love me

Or just leave me behind?

[Verse 2]

I cancel plans

Say I’m feeling sick

Truth is I’m afraid

They’ll see the cracks in my grin

I pray for peace

Then I chase the applause

Choking on the praise

Still convinced I’m a fraud

Screenshots, highlights

Everyone ahead

I’m stuck comparing my today

To what they already bred

[Chorus]

I keep it quiet in the back of my mind

Where I replay every word, every time

Smile on my face

Heart on decline

Tell me, am I wasting my life

Or just late to my prime?

I keep it quiet in the back of my mind

All of my fears standing there in a line

If they knew the things

I try to hide

Would they still love me

Or just leave me behind?

[Bridge]

If I say I’m scared

Will you stay this time? (stay this time)

If I drop my guard

Will I cross that line?

I’m tired of sinking

In my own design

So I’m saying it out loud

I’m not fine, I’m not fine

[Chorus]

I keep it quiet in the back of my mind

Where I replay every word, every time

Smile on my face

Heart on decline

Tell me, am I wasting my life

Or just late to my prime?

I keep it quiet in the back of my mind

All of my fears standing there in a line

If I say these things

I always hide

Will you still love me

Or just leave me behind?