The cracked mask

I hit you with memes at 2 AM, got you laughing till you cry

Sweet words like candy, watch the whole world get high

They call me the sunshine, the life of the chat

Nobody sees the shadows I’m hiding under the hat

Everyone’s brainwashed, scrolling through my disguise

Funny guy forever with the kindest eyes

But lately the laughs don’t land like they used to

The smiles are cracking, the mask is see-through

Everyone was brainwashed by my funny texts and kindness

Now they’re peeling back the layers, catching all my blindness

I’m terrified to let the real me see the light

So I brush off the bleeding with another joke tonight

It wouldn’t kill me to open up, lay my armor on the floor

But I’m too much of a coward, so I just laugh some more

Every “I’m fine” is a punchline, every tear is a bit

I turn my worst nights into comedy skits

You think you know me ‘cause I make the group chat glow

But the version you love is the only one I’ll show

They’re starting to notice the jokes feel a little too loud

The kindness too perfect, the timing too proud

I see it in their eyes when the laughter fades

They’re looking past the act, into the mess I’ve made

Everyone was brainwashed by my funny texts and kindness

Now they’re peeling back the layers, catching all my blindness

I’m terrified to let the real me see the light

So I brush off the bleeding with another joke tonight

It wouldn’t kill me to open up, lay my armor on the floor

But I’m too much of a coward, so I just laugh some more

What if they leave when they see what’s underneath?

The scared little kid who’s scared to breathe

I built this whole kingdom on smoke and on mirrors

Now it’s crumbling faster than all of my fears

Everyone’s waking up from my funny texts and kindness

I’m running out of places to hide all this mess

One day I’ll stop running, maybe try to be brave

But tonight I’m still broken… so I’ll just misbehave

Yeah it wouldn’t kill me… but God knows I’m too scared to tryJust one more joke…

One more smile…

Keep ‘em brainwashed for a while.