Between the Sheets and the Signal

I look back on the past, what I used to hold

What I had in my hands, now it feels grown cold

And still I can’t compare the shine to the night

To anything that feels good in the present light

Knowing what I know now, it cuts so deep

Raised on caution, taught to never sleep

Expect the worst, hope the best, that’s the code

So I brace for the crack in the weight I hold

I already know I’ll be disappointed like the rest

Every silver-lined promise put to the test

Don’t tell me to pose, don’t tell me to flex

I’m not the picture you’d paint, I’m a harder mess

You can keep your plans, keep your check in line

I’m a different kind of beast in a different kind of time

Don’t know who you think you are, tryna keep me in check

Knee’s weak for three weeks, still I never break neck

Barely even smoke now, I’m moving on fumes

I eat trees, but I still bloom in these rooms

And to dig deep, I don’t even need cleats

I’m already in the dirt where the silence meets

I play a different type of baseball in sheets

Right between the lines where the night retreats

I already know I’ll be disappointed like the rest

Every silver-lined promise put to the test

Don’t tell me to pose, don’t tell me to flex

I’m not the picture you’d paint, I’m a harder mess

You can keep your plans, keep your check in line

I’m a different kind of beast in a different kind of time

So go get the password, sign in to the network

You can’t outgrow the system, that’s the hard work

You ain’t never bigger than the program though

I’ve seen the whole machine, and I know how it goes

Make a bet on me and maybe then you’ll see

I’m probably not the man you want me to be

I already know I’ll be disappointed like the rest

Every silver-lined promise put to the test

Don’t tell me to pose, don’t tell me to flex

I’m not the picture you’d paint, I’m a harder mess

You can keep your plans, keep your check in line

I’m a different kind of beast in a different kind of timeI won’t pretend, I won’t perform

I learned to move through the breaking storm

If this is me, then let me be