Colder Than Apologies

[Verse 1]

I left my cup

On your favorite book

Coffee stain halo

Where your thumb once shook

Your sweater still hangs

Off the bedroom chair

I sleep on one side

Like you're still there

[Chorus]

I'm colder than apologies

You stopped believing long ago

I keep rehearsing every scene

Still choosing all the worst ways to let you go

If I could scrape you from my skin

I'd only carve your name in deeper

I'm colder than apologies

And you deserved a fever

[Verse 2]

I hear your laugh

From another room

Just the fridge humming

In the quiet gloom

Your last text sits

Like a loaded gun

"I can't love you

While you hate everyone"

[Chorus]

I'm colder than apologies

Still choosing all the worst ways to let you go

If I could scrape you from my skin

You said

"You turn every touch

Into something you can ruin"

I wore that line like a curse

Now it finally feels like truth (oh)

I see your dad at the store

He looks past me to the floor

He knows what I did

To his favorite secret kid

[Chorus]

I'm colder than apologies

You stopped believing long ago

I keep rehearsing every scene

Still choosing all the worst ways to let you go

If I could scrape you from my skin

I'd only carve your name in deeper

I'm colder than apologies

And you deserved a fever