Crying in Designer Heels

I could ungo like armor before I walk out the door

Smile like nothing's broken, like I'm not aching anymore

But every ring is quieter when your name drifts through my head

And I tuck the tears behind my eyes, leave the hardest words unsaid

I've been holding my breath through the thunder

Tryna keep my heart from coming undone

I'm hiding tears behind confidence

Standing in the light where my defense

Has all lost that part of me that you held tight

How grateful of the night to be alright

While trembling steps

Then I stand taller

Even with a heart that still feels smaller

I'm not the girl I was when we were whole

I'm Crown Roots where the cold wind blows

I used to measure heaven by the shape of your hands

Now I'm learning how to live with the plans that never land

There are ghosts in the hallway, there are echoes in the sheets

But I'm sweeping up the silence, making room for me

Every scar is a story I carry

Every bruise is proof I survived

I'm hiding tears behind confidence

Standing in the light, right on my defense

If I lost the part of me that you held tight

I'll grab the love then learn to be alright

I'm trembling instead and I stand taller

Even with a heart that still feels smaller

I'm not the girl I was when we were whole

I'm growing roots where the cold wind blows

Let the memory reign, I won't run from it now

I can miss what we were and still make myself proud

If love came apart, I can build again from before

With every broken piece, I become more

I'm hiding tears behind confidence

But now my voice is wearing less of a fence

Have I lost the part of me that you

How tight?

I'll crave the love that might to be alright

I'm shallow and stuck, then I stand taller

Through the acre, rise a little bolder

I'm not the girl I was when we were whole

A growing roots where the cold wind blows

Yeah, I'm growing roots

Where the cold wind blows