hey mom.

maybe you never heard how i yelled

“i’m right here!!” but you were always too far.

maybe you never noticed my scars,

maybe you never noticed my sobs,

or maybe you just didn’t care to notice?

so listen now when i sing this song.

listen to what i’ve held in my heart for so long.

i don’t need lectures everyday after school,

i don’t need you yelling at me for everything,

i just need you to be there for me like you used to be when i was your little girl.

now that i’m older, you just throw me aside?

i’ll just never understand why.

still i would never even forgive you.

you told everyone i’m a useless kid who doesn’t listen but really who’s the problem here?

please you started this when i was nine.

(nine!) trying to figure out why you didn’t love me like everyone else.

(ten!) seeing you understand outsiders better than me.

(eleven!) always leaving me out at family gatherings.

(twelve!) had hope you actually loved me.

(thirteen!) finally noticed you never tried to see me

i was still a child trying to see why you would just give up on me.

now you try to get my attention,

do you just want me to go back and forget everything you done?

you told me you would change for me.

but really it has been so long so here we go again with this shit.

everything you say just feels the same.

just call it, i want it over.

nothing you try to do will heal the damage that’s already been done.