Learning the Language of Heart

**“Learning to Stay”**

I learned to love like a door half-closed

One foot in, one foot ready to go

You said my silence felt like cold air

But I swore I was always there

I memorized the art of escape

Turned every feeling into a shape

That I could fold and hide away

So no one saw what I couldn’t say

I was fluent in almost

Comfortable in gone

Built a home in the distance

Then wondered what went wrong

I’m trying to stay when it shakes me

Trying to feel when it breaks me

Undo the habits I made in the dark

Learning the language of heart

I don’t wanna love like a ghost anymore

Slip through the cracks, keep a foot out the door

Even if it tears me apart

I’m learning the language of heart

You held a mirror to my defense

Showed me the cost of my indifference

Every “I’m fine” I threw your way

Was just a wall I was too scared to name

I know I made you question truth

Like love was something I’d only use

But I’m untangling who I’ve been

From all the ways I shut you out again

I was safe in the shallow

Never risking the deep

Now I’m tracing the shadows

Of the parts of me I keep

I’m trying to stay when it shakes me

Trying to feel when it breaks me

Undo the habits I made in the dark

Learning the language of heart

I don’t wanna love like a ghost anymore

Slip through the cracks, keep a foot out the door

Even if it tears me apart

I’m learning the language of heart

Maybe I’ll stumble, maybe I’ll run

Back to the version of me I was

But I’ll turn around, I’ll face the flame

Even if I don’t know how to change

I’m done with the distance, done with the disguise

Done watching love through guarded eyes

If it’s a risk, then let it be

At least it means something to me

I’m trying to stay… when it shakes me

Trying to feel… when it breaks me

I’m trying to stay when it shakes me

Trying to feel when it breaks me

Undo the habits I made in the dark

Learning the language of heart

I don’t wanna love like a ghost anymore

Slip through the cracks, keep a foot out the door

Even if it tears me apart

I’m learning the language of heartI’m still afraid, but I won’t hide

I’ll let it hurt, I’ll let it try

For once I’m here, no drift, no art—

Just learning the language of heart.