Locked Doors, Faded Nights

Chains on my wrists, mama screaming in the hall

Sixteen and running, but I always hit the wall

Jumping out my window, got no freedom in this house

Puffing on regret to kill the pain without a sound

Locked up, cut down, my own worst enemy

But I ride or die for blood, that's my legacy

Counting up the scars, I can't pretend

Smoke fills my lungs but never mends

I'm lost in a haze with nowhere to land

Looking for love in the burning sand

All these locked doors and faded nights

Running from myself, but the pain still bites

My boyfriend's arms where I feel so alive

Family above all, it's how I survive

Hating the world but I'll fiercely defend

Every soul I call my own till the end

Weed on my fingers, bad thoughts in my mind

Judge me for the smoke, at least it’s kinder than time

The world’s against me, I see it in their eyes

Nobody knows, behind anger I hide

But when my phone lights up, it’s him on the line

For a moment I’m safe, hearts entwined

Counting up the scars, I can't pretend

Smoke fills my lungs but never mends

I'm lost in a haze with nowhere to land

Looking for love in the burning sand

All these locked doors and faded nights

Running from myself, but the pain still bites

My boyfriend's arms where I feel so alive

Family above all, it's how I survive

Hating the world but I'll fiercely defend

Every soul I call my own till the end

Dreaming of the highway, just us and the moon

Tires peeling out, hope we leave this place soon

But every time I try, the sirens pull me back

Another cold night, another panic attack

But family’s my war cry, I’ll never crack

All these locked doors and faded nights

Running from myself, but the pain still bites

My boyfriend's arms where I feel so alive

Family above all, it's how I survive

Hating the world but I'll fiercely defend

Every soul I call my own till the endSo I light up for the lost pieces inside

Running from the world but won't let these ties die

Maybe one day, I'll break out—I'll fly