Missed Love

Mmm

I know that you see me calling

I just wanted to hear your voice

Three in the mornin', I'm parked outside the store

Engine been runnin', I ain't ready to go home

Got a message from my daughter, say she miss me on the phone

Gotta tell her that I love her, then I cry when I was alone

Got a woman that I love, but we don't talk like we used to

She remember all the things I did, I remember what we been through

Every time we try to fix this up, don't get brought up

We keep sayin' that it's over, then we partin' just to fuss

I've been drivin' through the city, seein' places we would go

That's the spot we used to eat at, almost pulled up out a hole

Then I thought about the last night we both were sayin' things

How about you grab your keys, beggin' you to stay?

Now I'm sitting at this red light, lightning in my face

Got a thousand things to say, but don't know what else to say

I ain't tryna make you guilty, I ain't asking you to choose

I'm just learning how to love somebody I might really lose

And I don't know where we went wrong

We were so close, now we're so far gone

I can't reach you from my phone

Knowing I should leave you alone

I got missed calls, missed love, missed nothing

Still got your

Number memorized

I been tryna get you off my mind

But you keep showing up

When I close my eyes

Tell me where to love one

Tell me where to trust one

We were supposed to make it through the storm

Now we're strangers but I got sweet kids looking

And I still love you

But I can't keep losing myself loving you

I seen your picture yesterday

You were smiling with your friends

Almost sent a little message

Then I thought about getting

You deserve to have real peace

I deserve to find my due

But it's hard to kill a feeling when it's still alive in you

I am cursed, I admit it

I let anger do the talking

But I promise I will change what you've had tied on me

Promise in the morning

That apologies don't fix what people feel

And the hardest part of growing is accepting what you feel

You know I got chicks, I gotta chase, I gotta children, I gotta race

Can't be losing all my focus tryna bring back yesterday

I still hope that you do good, even if we never speak

Even if somebody else depends, a man I couldn't be

I ain't saying I don't miss you, I ain't saying I don't care

I'm just tired of reaching out and finding nothing when you're near

So that I don't turn and I just wanna head into the crib

Gotta learn to live with hatred even though I never did

Living in another life

We would've got this done right

Maybe I would've held you close

Instead of always tryna be loved

If you ever think about me

I hope you smile instead of cry

'Cause he didn't know we didn't make it